Letter 7: Redemption

My late teenage years and early years as an adult were filled with moments of incredible impact that molded me like wet clay.

You know those moments that pick you up and drop kick you in the stomach, that leave you gasping for air when you feel like an elephant is sitting on your chest. Those moments were replaced with those filled with the most unbelievable sense of happiness and peace that I have experienced on this earth.  Redemption

Those days of incredible impact and grief came from:

- loss of my boss at work- alive one day- dead the next

- death of good friend in college from a car accident 2 months after she graduated college

- loss of my grandmother who was like my second mother

- unplanned pregnancy when I graduated high school when I truly was the "perfect" good girl who had it all

What I learned in those dark days is what I want to share with you....

- Life is all about how you handle the Plan B.  When things don't go your way, it is God's way of telling you that you should be somewhere else.  Listen....

- Don't take one single breathe on this earth for granted; you never know when you will not get another one.  Love those who treat you well with every fiber of your being and don't delay doing something important to you, because you might not get the opportunity.

- You are incredible strong.  It is in you.  You can do anything in this world that you want to do if you want it badly enough.Figure out what that is and DO IT.

From those days came incredible blessings and joy:

- I married your father/grandfather.  He truly is my rock and my best friend.  There is no one in this earthly world that I love and trust more than him. There is nothing I would not do for him and for our family. NOTHING.  He is my soul mate, and I have a connection with him that cannot be broken. Relationships are hard work, and I am most proud of what we have built together.  Honestly I pray every night that you each find someone that you can love as much as I love him.

- Each of you.  As I was a young mother, I am blessed because I get to spend more time with you.  I believe that being your mother is my calling and you will always be my masterpieces.

- No regrets.  I look back at the past and all my incredible career, family, financial, and spiritual successes and failures and know that I am right where I choose to be - where I am supposed to be.

That is HAPPINESS.

So when you face those moments of impact, those days and hours that force you to your knees, know that out of the pain can blossom the most beautiful flower if you just let go and let God guide you where you are supposed to be.

Love,
Mom